Happy New Year!
Now that we’ve entered 2019, I’m really focused on making this a year to remember. 2018 was a good year, but things are changing for our family over the coming months. Our family dynamics will alter and although a different routine may be unsettling for a while, I truly believe that this new chapter in our lives will be positive.
A full-time mother no more –
The biggest change in our lives this year will come in April when our youngest starts her nursery placement. She’ll spend each morning of the week at school, instead of in my care. This was really hard for me the first time around, but at least I still had the littlest at home. Letting go of our last baby, leaving them both in with someone else will be incredibly difficult for me. This is the year that I thought I’d been waiting for, the one where I’d finally get a little bit of myself back. Now it’s here though, I’m not sure how I’m going to fare.
It’s a cliché, but looking back over the last 4 years has made me realise that I didn’t enjoy it enough. Everyone tells you that the time will fly and that you’ll wish you could have the years back. It’s true. Time has left me behind, now I’m feeling despondent as I watch both of our girls leave their baby years behind forever. The time that I have wished away over and over again, is gone. The times I lost my temper, play on my mind as wasted moments and the tears I’ve cried over the smallest of things seem like tears wasted. Hindsight is such a wonderful thing.
Let the blogging commence –
I am looking forward to having a few hours each day that I can dedicate to work. Ever since the girls stopped napping some time ago, work has had to take a bit of a back seat. I vowed that I would give them the daytime hours, without sitting in front of my laptop. This has left me playing catch up most days, often into the wee, small hours. I love my blog. I want to continue to make a success of my work, so having the time to sit undisturbed will be a welcome change.
I have a couple of blogs aside from The Tale of Mummyhood that I’ve been working on in the background. So far, I haven’t felt like these platforms haven’t been up to scratch. I’ve worked on them when possible, but The Tale of Mummyhood is the main event so they always get pushed to the back of the queue. I’m looking forward to putting more time and effort into building them up.
Time for me –
This may sound a little self-indulgent, but one of the things I’m most looking forward to this year is finding myself again. A few hours by myself to just be ‘me’ without being ‘mum’ is something I’m really going to enjoy!